NO EASY WAY
There is no easy way
To look at this.
John's terrible leg pain
Has been diagnosed:
His cancer has metastasized--
Not just found in another location
But five or six!
Metastasized is not good.
It means the cancer has spread Throughout his body,
And the pain in his left leg
Is caused by tumors
That have invaded his spine.
John has a total acceptance
And says he doesn't even
need pain pills!
(The doctor gave us very strong
pain pills.)
Like a turtle, I have
Pulled back into my shell .
I am numb--
Totally numb.
Cat says, "If I only knew how bad he was from the beginning I would not have nagged him so much - to eat all the time and to be more active and to ... well... just to get better all ready."